I grew up !

I grew up ! Of course I grew up considering the fact that I earn my living now, make my own decisions, preparing my wedding, working on my master...etc. All these activities of course are adulthood activities , but the one thing that I realized today is friends effect in my life .

During childhood, I couldn't bare the idea of my best friend going to different school.It felt that I was going to be lost without her and I would have no one to play with. Today , I have to live without my best friends as life separates our ways. 

This is a new part of growing up I believe. To be on my own. 

We are still going to be best friends , but geographical barrier will separate us. We will be living in different time zones with different schedules and plans. Sharing every moment won't be possible. 

To many who are reading my words now I might seem childish. But this is the first time in my entire life that I have to live with the fact that my best persons are not around.

I always had trouble making new friends, as I have trust issues when it comes to new people . So my friends are one of the most valuable things in my life , considering also that I have no sisters. A huge part of my emotional strength comes from these girls and now ,in one year, half of them are going or already went on their own ways to make their dreams come true. 

I couldn't be more happy when they come and tell me they finally found the road to their dreams, but then I start realizing that this means I will have to go on my own through life. I never felt so much mixed feelings before !

Now I have to go through my big day alone, the day that I wish to share with all my beloved ones. Half of my friends might not be around. The one that used to have my back and always felt like my mother, but with my same age. My hitch, the one that supported me emotionally so many times and never got bored of my stories. My trusted adviser and the one with the purest heart ever. And the little cute fighter , the youngest evil witch. And who knows who else might go away.

I will also miss one familiar face.my best colleague ever, the brother that reminds me of my best year at college . 

Of course, there is technology today and communication is much easier, but just the idea of being far away from my beloved friends aches my heart.

Dear friends , 

all the good luck to you wherever you are. I wish you all the success and happiness in the world and I wish that despite the distance we will keep our bonds forever .