Half a soul

Half a soul, that’s me when on my own

I almost manage to breath without you

Living endless nights not followed by dawn

I have half a life when I’m missing you

You came into my life and made it complete

Adding flavors of love and joy to my soul

A life of harmony, rhyming my heart beat

You make me a princess, you make me whole

And now I’m alone counting the nights

Waiting to be alive again with my knight

I grew up !

I grew up ! Of course I grew up considering the fact that I earn my living now, make my own decisions, preparing my wedding, working on my master...etc. All these activities of course are adulthood activities , but the one thing that I realized today is friends effect in my life .

During childhood, I couldn't bare the idea of my best friend going to different school.It felt that I was going to be lost without her and I would have no one to play with. Today , I have to live without my best friends as life separates our ways. 

This is a new part of growing up I believe. To be on my own. 

We are still going to be best friends , but geographical barrier will separate us. We will be living in different time zones with different schedules and plans. Sharing every moment won't be possible. 

To many who are reading my words now I might seem childish. But this is the first time in my entire life that I have to live with the fact that my best persons are not around.

I always had trouble making new friends, as I have trust issues when it comes to new people . So my friends are one of the most valuable things in my life , considering also that I have no sisters. A huge part of my emotional strength comes from these girls and now ,in one year, half of them are going or already went on their own ways to make their dreams come true. 

I couldn't be more happy when they come and tell me they finally found the road to their dreams, but then I start realizing that this means I will have to go on my own through life. I never felt so much mixed feelings before !

Now I have to go through my big day alone, the day that I wish to share with all my beloved ones. Half of my friends might not be around. The one that used to have my back and always felt like my mother, but with my same age. My hitch, the one that supported me emotionally so many times and never got bored of my stories. My trusted adviser and the one with the purest heart ever. And the little cute fighter , the youngest evil witch. And who knows who else might go away.

I will also miss one familiar face.my best colleague ever, the brother that reminds me of my best year at college . 

Of course, there is technology today and communication is much easier, but just the idea of being far away from my beloved friends aches my heart.

Dear friends , 

all the good luck to you wherever you are. I wish you all the success and happiness in the world and I wish that despite the distance we will keep our bonds forever .

My Knight

In a dark forest I saw an armor shining
on a black horse he approached me
I saw that knight and at once I was falling
he looked me in the eye and said "stay with me"

you are the man I have always waited for
A knight soul, charming whatever you do
you asked for my heart and now it's yours
as no one will protect it like you

I dream of an empty ball room
only the tow of us waltzing
I dream of the look in the eyes of a groom
to the first sight of his bride swagging 

My homeland

It was all in my head

I invented the boredom I felt,

made myself believe the flame is dead

But now for that I’m so filled up with guilt

Breathing aches when you're not around

My hand burns when not holding your hand

I feel like a bird tied down to the ground

Without you I’m far away from my homeland

Withdrawal

What shall you do when you want something badly and don't want it at the same time?!

It is like having two different persons inside your head. 

I use fear as an excuse for my hesitation but I always think of myself as adventurous and fear has no meaning to me. I just love taking risks and see how things go.

But I don't know why this is not happening now. Why am I starting to fear my own dreams specially when they are approaching me?!

I want something with every inch in me but yet I'm not sure I will be happy handling it.

To be honest, I'm not afraid as there is nothing to fear. I just have this unexplained feeling of withdrawal that I don't know how to deal with.

Traditions ... Go to Hell !

I am in desperate need to meet this person who invented traditions. In a world so filled up with religious rules and laws ,we don't need any added restrictions to our lives beside what we already have. 

So why do we follow traditions? Why did someone invent them in the first place? 

We complain each day about lack of freedom and flexibility in life and we still follow traditions that we won't go to hell if we break them and we won't go to jail either. 

I have this constant urge to break the rules, to act against traditions. 

God created us free and stated the rules of how to live happily worshiping Him . We don't need any extra man-made rules in this life.So, if not convinced with something just don't do it just because it is a tradition. 

Do what you see suitable for yourself as long as you are following God's rules. That's it. 

The Violin

Dreams do come true 
No more doubts or questions 
Plant the seeds and watch them grow 
And burn down all the assumptions

There will be tough times, you must conform 
No one said it is always sunny 
Adjust the sail and cross the storm 
To the land of your dreams, yes you are that lucky 

Fairytales are for real 
Fantasies do exist 
You just have to believe 
In the story of your life there will be a twist 

Moon will lighten up your nights 
And sea breeze will kiss your skin 
Happiness will sparkle in your eyes so bright

Nature will play the symphony of your dreams on its violin