Withdrawal

What shall you do when you want something badly and don't want it at the same time?!

It is like having two different persons inside your head. 

I use fear as an excuse for my hesitation but I always think of myself as adventurous and fear has no meaning to me. I just love taking risks and see how things go.

But I don't know why this is not happening now. Why am I starting to fear my own dreams specially when they are approaching me?!

I want something with every inch in me but yet I'm not sure I will be happy handling it.

To be honest, I'm not afraid as there is nothing to fear. I just have this unexplained feeling of withdrawal that I don't know how to deal with.

Traditions ... Go to Hell !

I am in desperate need to meet this person who invented traditions. In a world so filled up with religious rules and laws ,we don't need any added restrictions to our lives beside what we already have. 

So why do we follow traditions? Why did someone invent them in the first place? 

We complain each day about lack of freedom and flexibility in life and we still follow traditions that we won't go to hell if we break them and we won't go to jail either. 

I have this constant urge to break the rules, to act against traditions. 

God created us free and stated the rules of how to live happily worshiping Him . We don't need any extra man-made rules in this life.So, if not convinced with something just don't do it just because it is a tradition. 

Do what you see suitable for yourself as long as you are following God's rules. That's it. 

The Violin

Dreams do come true 
No more doubts or questions 
Plant the seeds and watch them grow 
And burn down all the assumptions

There will be tough times, you must conform 
No one said it is always sunny 
Adjust the sail and cross the storm 
To the land of your dreams, yes you are that lucky 

Fairytales are for real 
Fantasies do exist 
You just have to believe 
In the story of your life there will be a twist 

Moon will lighten up your nights 
And sea breeze will kiss your skin 
Happiness will sparkle in your eyes so bright

Nature will play the symphony of your dreams on its violin

It's my choice

    I need someone to explain to me why am I guilty for choosing to be happy even in hard times!! 

   I'm a normal girl with the ability to feel sadness and happiness just like everyone else on this planet. I only differ in one thing, I simply choose to be happy even when sadness is the normal human reaction to certain life events. To my astonishment, it turns out that being or acting happy in hard times is a sin that everyone around you start blaming you for. They accuse you of being heartless or senseless because you are not sad and crying as you should in certain events.

   The fact that I’m smiling and trying to get through my sorrow with hope in my heart doesn't mean that I have no sense or I never get sad. I get sad and blue like everyone, I just don't stay there for long. I choose to be optimistic and smile till the end. I don't think that I should feel guilty for doing so.

   I won't stop being happy and no one has the right to judge me or accuse me of having a cold heart.

Best version

When you feel flawless

And you are your best version 

All secure and calm with no place for stress

And you reach that state of perfection

Fear becomes a meaningless word

And life is completely redefined

A state of joy that doesn't belong to this world

This love that I never thought I'll find

A shoulder to cry on

A friend who echoes my laughter

In the darkest nights I have a reason to believe in dawn

Nothing can conquer me when I have my shelter